Stay True.

Today I wanna write about something that's been on my mind for a long time. It's been six years since I bought my first 4string and as the VOGUE Lp is a fact, it makes me realize it's been a long ride to get me where I am today.

Some people seem to forget all the work and struggling I've put in this to reach the position I'm in today. I've played in several bands recording and taping our own demos, releasing our own vinyl, I've done some fanzines just because I wanted people to know about unknown bands, I've been setting up tons of shows in my hometown with my friends, I've been supporting other bands in any possible way. And what do I sometimes get for all of this? Tons of bullshit and backstabbing. So called friends telling me I wanna be famous. Well, I can tell you this: I'm still in it for the same reason as 6 years ago. I'm in it cause music means more than anything in the world to me. Anything. Do I want to make money out of this? Hell no. Would I rather play in bands than live a normal live and work nine to five? Hell yes.

You think I dream about seeing my own face on television? Cut the crap. I don't care about television, I never watch it except for seeing South Park when I'm bored. I dream about living free, without obligations and misery. I want to sail free. I believe playing in bands is one of the possibilities to achieve this goal. I believe playing in bands will keep me from conforming to the norm of this society. So what goals do I set for my bands? Touring. Fuck selling thousands of cd's, be realistic, people download these days. We're born too late to live from the profit of cd's. We just gotta hit the road, play foreign ground and spread our tunes. And most important: we gotta spread a message.

I'm not into politics, actually I can't care less about politics. I lived in a home for refugees for a year and I realized how sick our beautiful country actually is. As sick as the world's politics. No one is truely free, no one is allowed to go and do whatever they want. That's what I have learned. I leave spreading messages about politics to people and bands who actually do care and do have something to say about it.

So what's my message, what are my songs about? About what keeps me busy, what keeps me awake at night.

This week HEARTATTACK RADIO will be recording new songs. One of them is called "STAY TRUE". I wrote this song for all the young kids who talk bullshit about me and my bands, who know nothing about the past and who will probably forget about punk in a year or two. I don't point my finger to anyone, I'm just saying some kids should rather prove themselves by contributing to the music scene than talking shit about people who actually DO live for it. I know I'm still here after 6 years and I'm pretty sure I'll still be here in another 6 years from now. Whatever you believe in, whatever you're dreaming of...just make you stay true to yourself. I'll end this writing with the lyrics to the song and hope it will get some people thinking as they read or hear my lyrics.

"I've seen you coming
and I'll watch you go
You're trying harder
every fucking show

But will you ever get a clue?
And will you always stay true?
Or is it just another phase you're going through?

We will find out soon.

You don't know how it was before
Don't remember how dead it was years ago

Hey kid, here's a little help:
you wanna fit in? Just be yourself.
Cause we will always see through
All the fake stuff that you do
and in the end you'll find out
we hate you. Oh yes we do."

sam